packing up the site

by now the web site had become so large that it was an unacceptable drain on my time. i had spent two years on it, and could not keep up with all the evolving changes. so i made a final push to finish all the major sections and cut back on my time commitment to it.

i closed down all the sections that were posted online in draft form, putting a "this page in development" marker in its place. then i made a list of sections i wanted to complete and worked through the list, sometimes one or two weeks for a single page.

with great effort i finished (or at least completed enough to make presentable) the paint guide, the paper guide, the brush guide, one after the other. i tuned and clarified the wording in other sections.

i caught up on the journal and finished the artist pages left undone. (so many artists, so little time!)

the last remaining section, on technique, i decided to add to piecemeal as i did more paintings.

i began looking into art schools in the bay area. two in particular — the san francisco art institute and the california college of arts and crafts — seemed interesting.

i had fantasies of myself spending all day in paint workshops and drawing classes.

i rarely stopped to think that this was a very strange twist in the life of an executive and behavioral scientist.

so what? there's a good kitty!

i wrote to several published artists and asked their comments on the site ... most did not reply, some offered constructive suggestions.

by now there was enough traffic to the site that i was getting regular correspondence from visitors. it was surprisingly rewarding to me to feel that other artists, struggling in many of the same ways i was, found the site useful. strangely, this also helped me to let go of it.

i informed by boss that i was leaving work, and set a tentative departure date and final obligations.

i'd set the life changes in motion. and wondered if the effects of painting really reached that far?

once i'd left work, said goodbye to the internet shell game, i went off to eureka to visit with family and get some of the stress out of my system. i stayed on for a month, and made many landscapes in a dry and literal style and a more poetical style, such as this eureka canal, among the first where i let the painting completely take its own course.

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